Live Long And Prosper
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- 6 hours ago
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- #ugh. the fucking struggle of a thing i will not talk about. its just an off shoot of one of my many
- #obessive compulsive tendencies. it just makes me think of my dad. like hes also a fucking anxious person but hes like. i have the thoughts
- #but then i dont let them control me so its not an issue. and he knos i get caught up on the structure and identification of problems so
- #hes always like. its only an issue if its like ruining ur life. and hes right and i definitely meet the standards of both of those things
- #bc im fucking thinking abt these things constantly. its in my head literally all the time. every second of the day
- #and i mean i guess this specific thing isnt ruining my life but it certainly isnt helpful and in combo with everything else my quality of
- #life is not what it could b. idk it just feels all empty which is y i became a fucking workaholic
- #bc i just get so fucking bored stuck in these stupid patterns that at least i can make myseld useful as i drive myself nuts
- #it also doesnt help that im still trying to unfuck my leg and not being very successful bc theres this fucking voice in my head like
- #keep moving. u cant sit down. walk around. dont stop. dont stop. dont stop. i can feel the muscles getting irritated again
- #its unbearable bc it doesn't really even hurt. i just kno im fucking it up for myself and i have all this excess energy that i cant get rid
- #of bc i cant run. anyway its just irritating
- #i probably triggered myself by watching the bear all day lol. its so good but it reminds me of working in a shitty banquet hall when my
- #brain was on fire. and theyve got that toxic workahoism that i so desperately cling to. and in a weird way i can relate tho their fucked
- #up mom when everyones just trying to help but shes so fixated on this thing that's clearly causing her distress but shes just screaming at
- #them. like i mean i have insight into my issues and i try not to let them affect anyone but me but its so hard when its like. i have to do
- #this thing. i have to do it. i kno its bad. i kno its fucked up but shut the fuck up and let me do this. u dont fucking understand
- #but i wouldn't say that bc i kno its irrational. ugh. i also have to go to a lab dinner tomorrow. maybe
- #no time has been listed so idk. its for my leaving so im technically the focus. hate that for me. whatever. itll b fine
- #at least the place is within walking distance and its like less than 3 weeks until i leave
- #unrelated
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ROUND ONE
SASUKE UCHIHA vs KIBA INUZUKA
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ROUND ONE
NARUTO UZUMAKI vs SHIKAMARU NARA
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- 1 day ago
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- #how does naruto have so many votes? 😭
- #probably bc ppl put all the problems with the show on him. which i dont think is fair. i put that on the author
- #shikamaru suck tho imo
- #in boruto it feels v much like hes upholding the institution of konoha. he feels like one of those old ass advisors
- #also i fucking hate everytime he says what a drag. its not cute. its really really annoying
- #also hate that he feels like a favorite of the writers in the way hes written
- #anyway. naruto is my bby and it makes me sad that ppl hate him 😔
- #naruto ramblings
- #reblog
- #polls
- #maybe i do hate thr show but not the boy. not naruto
- #protect my sunshine child
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Some healing otters for my mum
- 2 days ago
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- #bc she had chemo medicine injected directly into her liver monday
- #i never kno whats going on with her cancer stuff. like technically shes stage 4
- #bc it started in her uterus now its in her abdomen. liver. maybe her thyroid?
- #idk but its like not that aggressive of a cancer so fucking idk but ill be v sad when she dies
- #hopefully thats a long time from now but like shes done so much chemo thats gotta take time off ur life reguardless of the actual cancer
- #idk its just not fair. she's a good person and doesn't deserve this
- #original art
- #otter
- #lol sometimes when i draw otters blogs devoted to gay otters will reblog it and im like lmao hi 👋
- #ugh. i could have drawn this better but time time. who has the time?
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- 4 days ago
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- #let me express to u perhaps The frustration of my life
- #i like to learn. it is perhaps my favorite thing. new information. more more more constantly
- #but. my fucking brain is the fucking worst. because im not fucking stupid if i can focus and process the words being said i can understand
- #many things. i like to learn about math and physics and chemistry and biology and anatomy... ect concepts
- #but the focus and the processing of words is where we have problems. because i cannot focus for more than like 5min
- #i blink and suddenly ive been spaced out for a sec and need to reorient. i cant prioritize what to do 1st and im constantly bouncing betwee
- #tasks so nothing ever gets done and im too intimidated to start learning things. and when im trying to learn we habe the processing words
- #problem. like my reading comprehension is so fucking bad. like i will read a book on paper and maybe retain 25% of the info if im not
- #hardcore trying. for a class where i had to do a ton of paper reading. i had to read everything out loud to myself. highlight important
- #info. write myself a summary based on the highlights and then read the paper again before i could even begin to feel comfortable in
- #discussions. it was so fucking frustrating and miserable. ppl will give me physical books and im like thanks i cant fucking read sorry
- #too fucking dyslexic. read and listen they say. u have to read and listen at the same time bc i cant pay attention and i cant read
- #so if i do both then maybe the info gets in. thats y i have to read aloud but i hate it and still get distracted
- #i mean. i probably just have an attention problem. its also really annoying that my short term working memory is so awful
- #bc in order to make things make sense i have to draw or write them out. i cant judt go off the top of my head or i get stuck saying thr sam
- #thing over and over and over. its like my ability to think is extremely shallow. but thrn i read papers and recognize concepts from classes
- #i took years ago and im like. fucking y cant i know what i know? my head feels so empty but info is in there somewhere
- #its just so fucking frustrating that i love understanding systems so much. complex annoying little systems that fit together like a puzzle
- #and my fucking brain refuses to accept the information im trying to get in there. so i return to a remark left on my dyslexia assignment:
- #intelligent when not constrained by language or time. thanks. unfortunately language is how ppl communicate
- #also i freak out under time pressure lol. anyway ive just been reading papers for fun this weekend and remembering y i dont: bc its agony
- #but also i fucking love the concepts so much and i need a good understanding of photosynthesis before August when i join a photosynthesis
- #lab lmao. ugh. i love learning but my brain was not buildmt
- #built for it. if only if only someone could podcast about the obscure things im interested in while reading directly from the source
- #unrelated
- #also its like 105 degrees plus. its too fucking hot out
- #thats like 40 degrees C. the sun is like a death ray
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Most insane Fox Mulder moment?
Astral projecting into Scully’s dreams to spew cryptic bullshit
Taking a radioactive alien artifact onto a commercial airline
Shooting a corpse in the face to fake his death & immediately blowing his cover
Got his brain drilled. Woke up as a murder suspect & went back for more drill
Getting beat up by an invisible gorilla
Punching his boss in the face during office hours & not getting fired
Floating face down in the Bermuda triangle
Dumping gasoline on his head & cornering himself in a warehouse of bees
Putting a flukeman in custody. It didn’t have genitalia & he put it in handcuffs
Other
Some other insane things Mulder has done:
- Jump onto a moving train
- Hijack a gondola
- Got blown up while clutching an alien corpse
- Let a child killer loose in his sleep
- Was going to leave krychek to die in a locked car
- Staked a teen through the heart
- Drove across the country to break into his mother’s house and shout at her as she returned from her husband’s funeral (at the time she thought mulder was dead)
- 4 days ago
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- #seems like ppl r most agast that i didn't put jumping on a moving train on the list
- #but idk its not as funny as the other ones and idk it doesnt feel thst crazy to me when comparing everything else
- #but im glad we r in agreement that demons is so fucking crazy its unreal
- #also its v funny to me the ppl who have not watched the x files being like. um what is this show? does this actually happen?
- #and yes. its all insane and it all happens. i think he also eats fake blood at a crime scene
- #like the blood was fake but there was an actual dead body laying there?
- #also shout out to my fellow FMIAM listeners yall kno whats up
- #reblog
- #hes also done more crazy things but again i listed things thst just came to mind
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@hyper-discourse suggested - Anything/anyone from Avatar the Last Airbender
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This is my small Lucky Stone collection. Lucky Stones the ear bones (otoliths) of sheephead fish (also known as freshwater drum). Theyre characterized by the “J” or “L” shaped groove in the corner. You find them washed up on the shores of the Great Lakes, these came from Lake Erie.
- 5 days ago
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- #i was watching fish dissection videos again
- #and had a weirdly specific fantasy of befriending someone how fishes and getting them to give me all the otoliths of the fish they kill
- #i just want those tiny tiny fish ear bones. idk i just want to see what other otoliths look like
- #i kinda doubt any of them are as impressive as those of thr freshwater drumb lmao
- #reblog